Wednesday, 3 January 2018

I think people take away parts of you when they leave.
Like a souvenirs from a trip.
You let them.
You hope it reminds them of you.
It’s so beautiful- this whole cycle of people meeting and separating.
It is like an overwhelming drama playing in front of our eyes- with us as characters.
I like to think of our lives as a very well scripted narrative where none of the characters know where they are heading, and all of it seems so haphazard at times, yet we all end up at the right places at the right time with our stories converging with people we never knew.
The main characters leave when they promised not to.
The little side actor who had a two minute cameo when you wept on the footpath suddenly returns, only to make your heart jump and leap, and call his return an act of destiny. But he is just a side actor. You forget that and he leaves too.
You meet a stranger once again but you are too tired.
You are too tired of protagonists leaving and side actors ruining the perfect script that you wish to quit this drama.
We are forgetful beings.
This is a never ending story.

She tells me that there are so many stories intertwined together with each of us having a story to ourselves.
I think it is one of the best things I have heard someone say recently.
She tells me that she has quit cinema.
“Maybe you are just waiting for the right actor.” I say.
She looks at me smiling.
“There are no right actors. We are in the wrong drama.” She tells me.
“Sometimes you need to wait for the climax.” I say.
“You know when my last lover left, he took away sadness.” She doesn’t look at me when she says this.
“People don’t take things from us. We serve it to them. We beg them to take it. We hope they remember their journey with us.” I look into her eyes.“I have been giving people so much of myself that I feel empty now.”
 Her words are hollow.I get up. I hold her hand. I get down on my knees.I ask her, “I have a plate filled with sadness and I am full. Will you share a little with me?”She smiles.
Curtains drop.
This is a never ending story.

Friday, 17 February 2017

Give me a new life...

One time in my life
I thought of the world
As something perfect
Where everything was possible
But then my dreams
And my heart
We’re broken
To the point that it affects me to this day
There’s such a mix of
Sadness
Regret
Anger
Confusion
Stupidity
That I can barely comprehend it
But I hold it in
Until I can’t
Then I feel like
I’m not going to make it
I am troubled
I try to find out
How to fix this problem
Am I lonely?
Do I need a vent?
Do I need friends?
Do I need alone time?
I still don’t know
What I need
And I wait for an answer
To this day
And I don’t know
If I can find it
How I can find it
Or when I will find it, If I even do find it
But that thought Scares me.

It's almost silence everywhere
Sound of so felt dead wind trying to awake me
Breeze attempting to pacify the huge burden of time held on my emotional heart
All seems worthless, It's emptiness with every coming moment
I fear oblivion, someone please bring me out from this moment
Give me a new life...

Friday, 16 December 2016

Angel and Human.

Rohit was walking five steps ahead of Sanjana.
Sanjana asked - ‘Why Mr.Handsome is striding fast?’
Sanjana noticed Rohit kicking away some sharp stones and throwing away the thorny sticks.
Rohit stopped and turned, ‘Just clearing the path…for the angel to walk!’
Sanjana blushed fully and went near Rohit.
‘Will Mr.Handsome be the protector of angel throughout the life?’ asked Sanjana.
‘Well,’ said Rohit, ‘if angel is okay to marry a human, then no problem!’

And they walked hand in hand happily everafter.

Saturday, 10 December 2016

Oh I never thought it that way !!

Excuse, if a movie scene looks awkward between the life lessons narrated here. I had a “Oh, I never thought of it that way!“ moment while watching Dear Zindagi (even Alia Bhatt agreed).
Forgive for not remembering the exact lines, but Jehangir Khan, played by the charismatic Shah Rukh Khan, asks why do we need that “one special” relationship in life. Stirring my head, he points out we keep seeking a special relationship that satisfies us in every way. Rather, he says, why not have a special someone for coffee, another one to talk for hours, another one for sharing your days. You get the point, don't you? He winds up with the question “Why do we burden one relationship with everything we need in life?!”
That was a Wow moment for me. That seemed like a simple solution to many problems in life. A revelation. Is not it :P
Your view?

I care. I adore. I respect

Today suddenly someone asked me is their any alternative to "I love you"
I kept thinking .....


“And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place and have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like "I love you"
Frank Sinatra
There are so many ways to express love than saying” I Love you” not because it sounds stupid or melodramatic at times but because love is a beautiful expression to be limited to be expressed in just three words.
The day she got unwell,you didn't say a word but stayed with her for few hours to take care of her you said you care, without saying you care.
The day she is stressed out of work,you don't ask too much question but prepare a cup of coffee or tea. You say without saying that you adore her.
When she waits for you to have dinner with you even if it's late you serve her the first bite you say without saying that you respect her.
When you make her the meaning of your life you say without saying that she completesyou.
There are so many words that could be better than “ I love you”
However they all mean only when they are acted upon than just said.
I care ,I adore,I respect. 

And some other alternatives which I said to my someone special is :


  • When I’m with you, I feel safe from the things that hurt me inside.
  • Be my quote, I will be your story.
  • You are my strength, please never let me feel weak.
  • Don’t let me walk away.
  • I choose you.And I’ll choose you,over and over and over. Without pause , in a heartbeat.I’ll keep choosing you.
  • I didn’t plan it. But you are the best thing ever happened to me.
  • Everybody has an addiction,mine is you.
  • Good things in life are better with you.
  • You are not my number 1 ,you are my only one.
  • You stole my heart but I’ll let you keep it.
  • Thank you for reminding me what butterflies feel like.
  • You are my favorite place to go when mind searches for peace.
  • And suddenly, all the love songs are about you.
  • I look at you and see the rest of my life in front of my life.

And yes she made my reality better than dreams!!!!

Saturday, 1 October 2016

Give it a shot !!

Don’t get so caught up in not knowing what you want to do. Society does a good job of convincing people our age that they need a plan and all kinds of goals by the time your 21 and frankly, that’s unrealistic bullshit. 
Don’t be afraid to change your major once or twice or even three times. 
Hell, don’t even be afraid to drop out, and completely wing it without any kind of a plan.
Instead be afraid of not chasing what you want. 
Be afraid of winding up stuck with a job or living somewhere you hate. 
Be afraid of settling for anything but your idea of perfect.
I believe that you’ve got one shot at your life and if you’re going to spend it chasing anything but what your heart desires then you can’t really call that living.


Remember you can't go back and do the things right but you can definitely give a shot about the things you regret in future.

Sunday, 18 September 2016

Will anyone care after I die ?

The Caterpillar and Alice looked at each other for some time in silence: at last the Caterpillar took the hookah out of its mouth, and addressed her in a languid, sleepy voice.
`Who are YOU?' said the Caterpillar.
This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied, rather shyly, `I--I hardly know, sir, just at present-- at least I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'
– Alice in Wonderland, Chapter 5
The question of mortality is something that has inspired fear and wonder since the human frontal lobe got big enough for us to start actually thinking about the matter. In the millennia since then, more possibilities have been offered than I could hope to catalog. Almost all of the answers fall into the category of there being no persuasive, reliably reproducible evidence to support them, but also no way to refute the claims for anyone who chooses to believe. Underpinning lots of metaphysical uncertainty about death, though, lies both a fair bit of physical certainty and an even more pressing philosophical dilemma: what is it that makes you you?
How can we be sure there is no Heaven, Hell, or Purgatory? Does anyone actually have scientific evidence against them? I don't think so. Nor, do we have scientific evidence that supports such beliefs. Can anyone doubt that in 100 millennia our rudimentary 2016 science will be no more relevant than cave-man drawings?
We already know that reality is not necessarily reality, because we all perceive everything differently. We can generalize what a groups sees and experiences, but we really can't be sure whether any of the things we know to be true actually are true. It could be that I am the only consciousness in the universe, and maybe I am making all this stuff up.
Given that my consciousness may have existed for trillions of years, I suppose anything could be possible.  Maybe I am The God of Myself, alone in a sea of vast nothingness, with only my thoughts propelling me a few hundred billion years deep into total insanity.
Sometimes I wonder, what would it be like, when I die?
People would sigh, cry, others would just stand by.
Some would lie, “Why did he have to go? He was such good a guy”.
I’d be laughing, and looking through their lies, from the sky.

Tears will be shed, I’m sure, by many of those,
“he was such a gem”, they all would propose.
despite the fact, when alive, respect in them, for me, never arose.
Funny enough, now they’d shower all their love, or should I say impose?

Some might be happy, or would they be? I don’t know.
For such hatred for me, no one did ever show.
Anyway, in my life, such people I’d always let go,
but one can never be sure of anything, is it not so?

Few of them would mourn deeply, their lives would go asunder,
for they’d be the ones who really loved me, up above, or down under.
Thinking of them, I realize bringing these thoughts to mind is a blunder,
but on some other days, drowned in melancholy, I sit, again, and I wonder….
At 21, I have gone through all sorts of opinions on what's real and what's not, and I have come to only one concrete truth. And that truth is, 'I don't know what I don't know', and that's that.