Saturday, 24 January 2015

yes i admit that i miss her!!!!

When two persons talk after a long time, they have loads of things to share and talk specially when you stayed awake talking with her till morning. I don't even had a little idea how time passed with her, actually not pass, it flowed like a wind.

Actually we were very good friends. I just love talking with her and sharing things with her.  She was very unique, attractive and funny in her own way. I can bet people can never get bore with her. She is so so so interesting.

Our story started like she was my junior in school.  We rarely had a conversation in our school.  Her elder sister is a very good friend of mine. So, via her sister i started talking with her. With time being passed, we became very good friends, started talking daily,shared almost everything. I flirted with her a lot and she also surprisingly did sometimes. But i never loved her or something like that came into my mind.  I was very clear with my limits. We just keep on talking and sharing things as much as possible.  I trusted her like i was never betrayed.  Someone whom i know like the back of my hand, with whom i can spend the whole day talking. She was the last person i like to talk with before i go to sleep because talking with her makes me forgets everything. But then one day i dont know whose black eyes fell on our friendship..... Everything changed

Then suddenly i dnt even know what happened to her, she stopped replying to my msgs. She suddenly replied "its over,, never msg me anymore. I dnt wanna talk with you." and blocked me. I was like shattered from inside. Such a good friend of mine left me for no reason.

I was all alone and my mind somewhere else.  Being addressed by her in a few hell words, it was killing my mind, i cant even solve surds... She started coming in my dreams, i see her even in coffee cups. I was defeated, i quit, sadly says The Damn-Edged Atul.....

I was sure it was not love..  actually i had a bad habit of thinking and talking to her. i just wanted to be her best friend. Yeah it was definitely not love, yeah i was so beaten up, its hard but true to regret being the master mind, just she was revolving around, another my mind couldn't find. I kept on thinking , i have always received bluff being too good to others because people never understood me.

My mind kept on saying me that i was misunderstood. But internally i know well that i was not wrong, it was you who was so rude. You don't recognize me anymore, i m perished in ash, found no blood though the heart is squeezed in squash. Before i was very cheerful, i was not so dumb. But from that day my life has changed, i have become so numb!!  One day like my hair, my heart will curl, I realized i have become so lonely just because of a girl.  Ya i admit that i cant forget her, i will miss her forever. She was so damn sweet with me but just because of a girl i cant make my life null and hell all above.... 

I miss her even now and will miss her forever.  I hope whenever she realizes her fault, she will come back to me and start talking with me. The memories i wrote together with her will remain forever with me..... :(

5 comments:

  1. Speechless. Touched. Surprised. Shocked.

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    1. it was my adrenaline rush when i wrote this... please jyada mat sochna yar...
      even i am shocked when i read it today.. kya kya i wrote :P

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  2. Right after 2 months. We're back together.

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  3. Yeah I too hope that this time you people remain friends forever and ever ๐Ÿ˜Š because in your fights I get screwed up๐Ÿ˜ atul you know this better๐Ÿ˜‰

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