So here comes agian 14th february. The day of love as people call it. Well i go back into the glimpses of past. Yet another year passes by with some old memories. Whoever says time heals everything does not know the pain of clinging. I would like to share something about my best friend...
I always wished that i had the kind of best friend i could just text a code word to and she would know exactly how to respond, the friend who would say "let's just hand out this weekend" and i would want nothing but uninterrupted time with her; the friend who would hear when i am sick and shows up with a bowl of soup. the friend who includes me in everything; whispers secret to me that she tells to no one else and the one who just always seem to want to be with me the same amount of time that i want to be with her.
When i am feeling little nagging angst of lneliness- it's for her that i want. It's for the fantasy best friend that i now would be Thelma to Louise, Raj to Simran, The laughter to our joke and even the fork to spoon. she would be the finisher of my sentences, the reader of my mind and the affirmer of my heart. Our time together will be easy, safe and comfortable.
The only friend she is who can bring my anger down. Someone with whom i want to spend the whole day with and never regretted, with whom i can form a well understood, synchronised partnership above all differences. People stay jealous but friendship is above all jealousy and just jump over the dumb peoples brain. she understands me better than i ever knew myself. The perfect hug in the right time and the correct method to stop you from entering into a wrong path. Closer than your girlfriend she is, loves you more than your lover, cares for you almost as your mother. I hate to see her go, it pull out all that i had from me. No matter what happens , how stuff changes, circumstances alter, how many fights and arguments i had with her, we guys stick by because thats what friendship is and my bestfriend is worth it!!! I proudly admit today that i love my best friend and no one can betray this fact...
I admit that i had that kind of friend in my life but due to some unavoidable circumstances she is not with me any more and we can never be together aswell. we even stopped talking or rarely we talk.
But above all these , i miss her a lot and always wish that she could be back in my life
I always wished that i had the kind of best friend i could just text a code word to and she would know exactly how to respond, the friend who would say "let's just hand out this weekend" and i would want nothing but uninterrupted time with her; the friend who would hear when i am sick and shows up with a bowl of soup. the friend who includes me in everything; whispers secret to me that she tells to no one else and the one who just always seem to want to be with me the same amount of time that i want to be with her.
When i am feeling little nagging angst of lneliness- it's for her that i want. It's for the fantasy best friend that i now would be Thelma to Louise, Raj to Simran, The laughter to our joke and even the fork to spoon. she would be the finisher of my sentences, the reader of my mind and the affirmer of my heart. Our time together will be easy, safe and comfortable.
The only friend she is who can bring my anger down. Someone with whom i want to spend the whole day with and never regretted, with whom i can form a well understood, synchronised partnership above all differences. People stay jealous but friendship is above all jealousy and just jump over the dumb peoples brain. she understands me better than i ever knew myself. The perfect hug in the right time and the correct method to stop you from entering into a wrong path. Closer than your girlfriend she is, loves you more than your lover, cares for you almost as your mother. I hate to see her go, it pull out all that i had from me. No matter what happens , how stuff changes, circumstances alter, how many fights and arguments i had with her, we guys stick by because thats what friendship is and my bestfriend is worth it!!! I proudly admit today that i love my best friend and no one can betray this fact...
I admit that i had that kind of friend in my life but due to some unavoidable circumstances she is not with me any more and we can never be together aswell. we even stopped talking or rarely we talk.
But above all these , i miss her a lot and always wish that she could be back in my life
people may be thinking why i am writing about my best friend on valentines day. Well she was everything to me including my lover ;). unlucky i am coz i missed date with her this 14th feb...
Sometimes just a glimpse of you may suffice
but today is not the day of that kind
morning walks and activa rides
are still safe in my hearts old mine
With a stranger i talked all night
reincarnating the past in a shady room
with a sranger i smiled
to let it go in the darkest hour
some old pictures bring lots of memories tied together
though i am trying hard not to remember you
as u said u will feel guilty
but i am unable to do so
please someone help me out
someone bring me out of this trauma
i want to live a happier life
with you by my side
at times i think that you were a treasure i won but didn't deserve...i still have to say that i am not lucky but blessed to have you...Can't sleep...i am thinking about you. May be i am dreaming. Anyway i can't tell...all i know is that you are all that is left on my mind. I know u can't come back and we can never be together but i just wish and pray for you to stay happy forever wherever you are and don't miss me much...
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