Sunday, 26 July 2015

My 1st day of class in Kota :)

Major throwback. Well back in Kota i never got time to write blog coz I was well too busy there. So now remembering good old days and thought of writing my experience of 1st day of class. Well here it goes. Hitesh and Navin you both surely can relate to this :)

"No broda, IIT Delhi is better than Kharagpur. There are many side perks if you are in IIT Delhi. Behind you have AIIMS and its girl hostel is just beside IIT campus. IIT boys easily get hot girls of AIIMS. But dude its not at all easy, you have to be within AIR-100 to get there."
"That's folderol, Kanpur is the best one if anyone wants to go for research. And its campus is damn big"
"I am following ML Khanna, its the best book for Mathematics this deals with conceptual things and also teachers recommend this one, then for Physics HCV and Irodov if you really want to learn actual Physics. For Chemistry, I only follow Comprehensive and NCERT"
I was actually part of the above usual IIT aspirants boring conversation during coaching hours ,until I felt 'that' for the very first time.
“Motion” was my alma mater.
That was the first day, we (me and my 2 friends) reached our coaching class pretty early and sat down on second bench hoping to start the session very seriously.
But whom were we kidding? As soon as girls started coming inside that big hall of around 300 students capacity room,
It kind of started filling with colourful lights and we were being taken away from the concept of our hard work, determination and punctuality that we just decided.
Despite everything going on we didn't realize that we were in the vicinity of serious studious guys who started talking high stuff about cracking JEE advanced and me sitting there who scored only 88 in JEE mains and that too 7 in Physics :P. Ya it kinda scared me and at the same time bored me but we had no choice but to listen to them and involve in their conversation.
Suddenly, there was changeover in mood, environment and perhaps the world for me in about fraction of seconds.
My eyes went onto noticing a 'five foot something' girl with soft silky dark brown hair fallen over her right shoulder down to chest.
Her face being carved with utmost skills and wearing sleeveless yellowish 'kurti' with white 'duppata' on it. She was coming through door right towards me. (I thought so as every boy thinks:p) But trust me she seems morning sunrise to me. She was just beautiful and shining and glowing.
The moment got more enlightened when she sat just beside me but on different bench. During that five seconds I felt something inside me.
Heart pounding more than normal, eyes wide open without a single blink, intense and immediate sweating etc. I didn't know what that was but it was for the first time and felt really nice.
I could not took my eyes off her mesmerizing eyes. They look like water in the sunshine. Her smile was so dazzling and lively. She looked like an middle eastern exotic princess. Her hair was a rich shade of mahogany. It flowed in waves to adorn her glowing porcelain like skin. Her face made me forget all the worries of JEE. LOL
Everything around me was lost- the conversation, the class. Infact, the other way, i was lost. She was the one behind all this 'lost' magic going on. She was so stunning that my reflexes stopped working. My eyeballs got stuck on her. I couldn't listen any sound. This pleasant feeling was halted by our chemistry teacher.
There is always this thing, 'when you like something you want it more'. Same was the case with me.
The laws of Themodynamics and organic reactions couldn't tempt me for long and I got lost again in her charm. I was fully mesmerized by her.
At middle of the lecture, AC of our classroom went off due to power cut. Everyone started feeling uncomfortable and sweating like pig. I looked at her and was astonished. What is she? Made of crystals!!! She was not sweating. I know it's gross to talk about a girl's sweat but I couldn't help but notice that. Maybe my mind got there because the whole surrounding was sweaty. Anyway power came and AC was on again. Everyone got to what they were doing. I also got to my infinite syllabus subject, which was getting lost in her charm.
At very next moment I got both nervous and excited. She looked at me and our eyes met. Although it was for very few seconds but that was the best feeling of life. I always wonder what is there in girl's eyes that makes any average guy go crazy.
Class was about to end but i had not wanted it to. I wished to sit there and continuously look at her beautiful face.
I stood at corner of corridor outside the class to have a last glance of her. I didn't want her to go. I did not want to have a stop on my amazing feeling which she ignited. Now, she is going without even bothering for it. Why girls do that always? I kept looking till she was out of my sight. I was little bit cheerless but was also delightful as she gave a feeling which no girl had given me yet. I decided to preserve it for my whole life as it was my first sight stranger love.
Why so serious? she will come again tomorrow. My rate of reaction which became slow again started. I took a deep sigh and again thought of studying.  LMAO         

But the thing is she never came again. I even searched for her many a times but never saw her again in Motion. She was just a flow of wind which took my breathe away for once. I can never forget her face  

Thursday, 9 July 2015

Love Happens!!!

Poets, authors, artists, philosophers, scientists and anthropologists have tried to define love for centuries. Love is one of the few subjects that has troubled, intrigued and fascinated everyone.

Lisa Hoffman put it beautifully "Love is like pi natural, irrational and very important." 

Bob Marley said : "Only once in your life, I truly believe you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you have never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments that life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are."

Well for me, lets start off with what love isn't.


What Is Love? It Definitely Isn't...
  • Manipulation. "If you loved me, then you would..." isn't love, but rather infatuation.
  • Compromising who you are. If someone asks you to do or say  something that isn't in your nature, that isn't true love. Although love  does involve compromises between partners, someone who is in love with  you will never ask you to change who you are in order to be loved.
  • Violent. Passions can definitely become inflamed with someone  you love, but a relationship with physical or emotional violence isn't  true love.
  • Just lust. Yes, chemistry and physical attraction are important, but true love also includes commitment, trust and respect.

So what true love is:


  • true love is attached
  • true love is caring
  • true love is commitment
  • true love is attractive
  • true love is intimate
  • true love is pure ecstasy

Love is ecstasy and agony, freedom and imprisonment, belonging and loneliness. Love is what holds you together when life tears you apart. Love is amongst the few things in the world that makes life worth living. It is one of the most strongest emotion that a human being is capable of feeling. Love is when other person's happiness, other person's dreams, other person's aspirations, other person's problems become your own. There is no separation between you and the other person. Love is when you see someone's face and instantly know what they are feeling. There is this telepathic connection that binds all the people that are in love. Love is the foundation of any happy relationship. 
  • Love is walking hand in hands.
  • Love is messing up someone's hair.
  • Love is being happy knowing that she is happy.
  • Love is tickling.
  • Love is hating to say goodbye.
  • Love is passing notes back and forth in school.
I think Robert Heinlein put it beautifully “Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” 

It seems to be only rational thing left in the universe. True love is attachment without the need of possession. Love is that special feeling in your gut, love is when you can feel your own heart beating on the sight of your lover. Love is when you spend all you time thinking about that person. Love is when you will travel all over the globe just to get a glimpse of the person you love. Love is when you stare at your smartphone all day long hoping that the person that you love will send a message that says that the person is doing okay. True love is always selfless and does not demand reciprocation from the other person.

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that that they are a part of your life. Fall in love and experience it.....