WHAT AM I? WHO AM I?

I’m one of those guys who you see daily at the bus stop waiting for the bus or walking with the crowd on road…..

I’m one of those guys who is in a engineering college like many are but is yet to figure out his goal of life…..

I’m one of those guys who grumbles about the study load at college and bitches about his teachers and course curriculum…..

I’m one of those guys who go out for movies with his friends and then argues with them as to who’ll go and buy the popcorn and coke…..

I’m one of those guys who gets immense pleasure and a sense of relief when he listens to his favorite playlist…..

I’m one of those guys who loves reading novels a lot and is planning to write one too…..

I’m one of those guys who spends almost half the day on social media like Whatsapp, Facebook, Blogger and Instagram…..

I’m one of those guys who talks to his family at least once a day but never shares his problems so that they don’t get tensed….

I’m one of those guys who are a complete emotional fool but still manage to survive somehow…..

I’m one of those guys who wears a façade when he is a part of a social gathering…..

I’m one of those guys who really really likes a girl but circumstances dosen’t favour him…..

I’m one of those guys who thinks his life is fucked up but still does nothing about it…..

I’m one of those guys who complains daily about how the system functions but never takes any initiative to do anything about it…..

I’m one of those guys who feel sad and depressed when he sees someone in pain but forgets about it in 30 minutes…..

I’m one those guys who’ll regret more for the things he did not do than for the things he actually did…..

I’m one of those guys who suffer from multiple personality disorder……

I’m one of those guys who is a realist, veiled as a pessimist, who dreams to be an optimist…..

I’m just not like you…. But  I’m just like everybody else…..  In the most different way…...

I may sound contradictory but yes I am an idea. I am a constellation of thoughts. I am ordinary, but I dream big. My successes are not of much important, but neither are my failures…..

But, I am not just a dot on the planet. I am a lot of things to a lot of people. Good and bad, but not a mere existence…..

I am not a kid anymore, but I'd love to be…..

I get happy with the smallest of life's gifts, but that does not mean I do not want the big ones. I am a materialist with a heart…..

I hate fighting. But politics and wars interest me……

I am a procrastinator. I always plan on working hard an hour from 'now'…..

I like to believe I can do great, but I have my doubts…..

I like to be alone, I love solitude but still hate being left out…..

I love writing, but words don't come to me very easily. So I write in circles…..

I am laid back in action but urgent in thought…..

I fall from elegance with a dull thud and I apologize for my awkward sadness…..

I like it meticulous, but my room is really messy…..

I hate my neighbours playing loud music, but I myself sing at the top of my voice…...

I sometimes believe that I don’t belong around people, that I belong to all the leap days that didn’t happen…..

Seriously words will fall less to describe who I am….

A wanderer in search of life….

A conjurer in search of magic…..

A poet in search of rhymes…..

A writer in search of words…..

A child in search of innocence…..

A whisper in search of voice……

A human in search of true love…..

A darkness in search of light…..

A person in search of myself…..

I own my triumphs and successes, all my dreams, failures and mistakes, I have tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive and make sense…..

I own me and therefore I can engineer me…..

To end on a happy note, I am too interesting to handle, trust me…..

I am a contradiction….. A conundrum….. A puzzle and a riddle waiting to be solved…..

A story unfolding…..