From being strangers to being chat friends, to being very good friends to best friends and now lovers...
Everything happened so lightning fast. She started to care, too much she shared. My morning starts with her and my night ends with her. We talk endlessly. I always push her to say things about her. But i still fear to say things about myself to her, specifically my problems with life. I can't imagine a single day without her. Like a strong dose of oxygen she jumped into my life and i don't wanna loose her for any reason. She has changed my life to a great extent. Minute things of her effects me a lot.
She always would look at me softly in the eye, and ask me – what is the reason, when will you start sharing your problems with me, why are you so unsecure? I could not look back, I could not look up, I would just be quiet and I would just smile.
She asked me often, why don’t you open, why don’t you open up? I would take her hands, I would place them in mine, I would let her hold me, as I lay by her side.
I let her hold me, I let her take my words, she did not know but I had already opened up. I had said things which i never shared with anybody. I want her to understand that i wanna take things slow coz she might not be ready for all this.
She might be thinking i am building walls. But trust me if you are lucky the wall in your name will have windows and may be even doors. And may be time and tenderness will erode the wall brick by brick. Just know that if i give you windows in the wall, we have got a shot and that's enough.
Again even people ask me why i don't open up. The truth is when you start to like someone either they move, die or betray you, and you never see them again.
Well now the other part of the story. As this has always happened to me. The twist......
Everything happened so lightning fast. She started to care, too much she shared. My morning starts with her and my night ends with her. We talk endlessly. I always push her to say things about her. But i still fear to say things about myself to her, specifically my problems with life. I can't imagine a single day without her. Like a strong dose of oxygen she jumped into my life and i don't wanna loose her for any reason. She has changed my life to a great extent. Minute things of her effects me a lot.
She always would look at me softly in the eye, and ask me – what is the reason, when will you start sharing your problems with me, why are you so unsecure? I could not look back, I could not look up, I would just be quiet and I would just smile.
She asked me often, why don’t you open, why don’t you open up? I would take her hands, I would place them in mine, I would let her hold me, as I lay by her side.
I let her hold me, I let her take my words, she did not know but I had already opened up. I had said things which i never shared with anybody. I want her to understand that i wanna take things slow coz she might not be ready for all this.
She might be thinking i am building walls. But trust me if you are lucky the wall in your name will have windows and may be even doors. And may be time and tenderness will erode the wall brick by brick. Just know that if i give you windows in the wall, we have got a shot and that's enough.
Again even people ask me why i don't open up. The truth is when you start to like someone either they move, die or betray you, and you never see them again.
Well now the other part of the story. As this has always happened to me. The twist......
She suddenly told me then she did not love me,
She walked me to the door and softly kissed me.
She walked me to the door and softly kissed me.
I see my words crumble,
Into the night as I stumble
In my head I hysterically laugh
this is the reason why
I don’t open up....
Into the night as I stumble
In my head I hysterically laugh
this is the reason why
I don’t open up....
Living in a state of constant wistful despair, perhaps, will be my destiny, said the loner
Longing to be touched by you, will perhaps, be mine, whispered back the horizon.....
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