She didn't understand.....

 He wanted to cry, to cry inconsolably and loud,
 He just wanted to shout his lungs out,
 Every time he smiled his heart bled more,
 He had lost control over himself which had happened never before,
 Laughs were hurting more than all the scars combined he had,
 He had never imagined himself so weak and this in considerably sad,
 Silences had never hit him this hard,
 Staying alone haunted him which once he loved,
 The mask worn for years was never this vulnerable,
 He never thought himself getting so unstable…….


 The feelings he had for her were truest than ever,
 She was in his heart for eternity and forever,
 She could not understand it was impossible for him,
 To imagine a single day without her,
 The one thing that she never understood,
 That he was crazily in love with her,
 Perhaps he missed something somewhere,
 As the quantity was perhaps not enough for her,
 She always wanted him to leave her akone,
 And to let it go,
 He could never make her understand,
 She was his home, he would not find peace,
 Any damn place he would go,
 She was not a path,
 She was never for a season,
 She was his forever,
 She was his destination..

 But damn she didn’t understand……

Life is uncertain. We do many things to avoid the certainty of uncertainty in life. We plan for the future that might not come, we distract ourselves by purchasing material comfort-objects, we use alcohol and drugs to numb our feelings, and we latch onto others to avoid the deep feelings of isolation and loneliness we experience. The truth is, we are alone and we can die at any moment. The truth is bad things happen to good people all the time. You can sit there and think that it can’t or it won’t happen to you, but that’s a lie to help you sleep at night.

Good Night